| new shit.. |
[Oct. 19th, 2006|10:45 am] |
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ya so basically my life is quite sad.... My bf for a month just broke up with me and i had lost my virginity to him... I'm quite sad but meh ya.. i think i might be okay.. ill be adding more stuff in here so byebye loves |
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[Jul. 18th, 2006|05:16 pm] |
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| | zoned out | ] |
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| | SOAD - aerials | ] |
Okay so me and ricky are never talking and alina is just pissing me off... So yup ... there gunna go make there mormon babies and what not.. I have my great friend lauren and sara... sara you mean the world to me..
but i wanna dedicate this to anna....
Anna.... I know we had our fight.. we've had out fights... but tlaking to you feels great.. i hope that i can learn to .. understand things more.. and your 'Boy prob' you'll figure it out and i want to help this time for real..im good now :) |
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| *sigh* |
[Apr. 14th, 2006|12:11 pm] |
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| | home | ] |
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| |  bitchy | ] |
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| | listen to your heart -DHT | ] |
Hmmm what to say life's a bitch... God I'm going to Florida so that sohuld be okay... but im so upset... Alina - Ricky's gf if a hoe... i fucking hope she dies and burns in hell she's making me o upset... but i won't say anything he's happy so i won't ruin that... well... i don't know what else to write ill bbl... tata...
-megan |
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| fuck |
[Mar. 29th, 2006|03:28 pm] |
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| | fuck it | ] |
I have just had my heart ripped into pieces. I can't fucking even explain it. I feel like shooting myself. You don't know how hard it is not to go to that ufkcing drawer and grabbign that fuckign knife.... i fucking hate every fuckign thing. I wish i was dead. I want to fucking die a slow death and i want people to see it. I wanna fucking OD shoot myself stab myself cut myself. i want something to make this fucking bitch ass fuckign pain go THE FUCK AWAY!~#
#SDAG LWIE9PU [9HFHU PHURND OI I NEED IT TO GO AWAY FOR FUCK FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKIIJHNGVB EVER!!! i hope maybe...you guys will see me 2morrow... i hope... but as of right now im not sure... |
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| sdfsdfd |
[Mar. 25th, 2006|11:31 pm] |
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One step closer. One slash deeper. One tear blacker. Another smile stolen. The pressure she felt. The jealousy, the rage, the deep, deep insane sadness came out. Ice-cold tears traveled down her face. Blood curdling screams cracked the air. Dirt collected on her knees. She sat pounding on the ground. "why, why…" she called out to the sky. "why…" She calmed herself for a moment. What was this? Something she hadn't seen for a while a flash of hope. She looked up though. She shouldn't have. She saw the words carved in stone. 'Here he lies a loved man.' She screamed again and tackled the tomb stone. It didn't budge. She went insane she began to dig. Just dig.
-1 month later-
A missing report was sent out for the girl
-5 months later-
They kept looking not finding any clues
-3 years later-
She was declared dead.
-Present-
A little boy with his bike went by in the cemetery that his father owned. No one went to the back so he decided to be brave. He saw something. A hole. He furrowed his little eye-brows and looked in it. There lied a skeleton and a dead girl. He did not scream or cry or back up in fear. He smiled. He knew. He knew so well. Even for a little boy. He knew how it felt to loose someone. His mommy was gone. To him this girl was lucky. She was now with the one she loved. In peace. He sat and watched in a happy sickening pain. A little smile on his face. |
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| Hm... |
[Mar. 19th, 2006|01:00 pm] |
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| | i took the wrong pills... | ] |
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| | my depressing piano music as some people put it... | ] |
Well i guess everything is good now... I'm no longer single... if anyone cares lol...ne who yup...if i say anymore ill be saying to much :X I LOVE YOU RICKY
-megan |
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[Mar. 18th, 2006|04:25 pm] |
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| | no more... | ] |
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| | edward scissor hands | ] |
If everything is going so well why does it feel like i'm being torn apart from the inside. I feel this pain that is unexplainable... i feel so empty and deserted. Like a thing that is only used for about a minute when a person finds it.... well... i don't know what to do anymore... so many things cross my mind everyday and i wish that once, just once... i could have something without worryings... but that won't come soon so what does it matter....
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| guns |
[Mar. 18th, 2006|11:44 am] |
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| | t.a.T.u - all about us | ] |
who would be upset if i shot myself? |
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| i love purring... |
[Mar. 12th, 2006|11:21 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | muah muah muah | ] |
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| | HIM - Wings of a Butterfly | ] |
omg.... Okay so last night... omg what do i say it was amazing... i was on the phone with Ricky for like.... i think...5 hours but its cool because like his uncle owns the north west company of verizon so he has no long distance fees so when he calls i don't get any bills and niether do I. SO IT FREAKIN GREAT god im in love with him. If i hadn't met him man i owuld be a mess... i love him... well thats basically i have to say lol muah to rickay and huggles to all the rest!!! hehe
-megan |
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[Mar. 11th, 2006|12:08 pm] |
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| | hmm.... | ] |
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| | HIM | ] |
Well... Ricky left this weekend...wait oyu guys don't know about him... oh well he is gone until 4 oclock to day which is 6 our time *sigh* so sad lol waiten for my bitches to come home so we can go to our corners (costello school fair... ya were cool....) ne who if any one wants to come call me itends at 2 muah muah byebye
-megan
*~ my world is black and white but the tears i shed are red ~* |
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[Feb. 19th, 2006|11:04 pm] |
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| | rob thomas - lonely no more | ] |
I have nothing to say so there is nothing for anyone to read.... not that they would anyways..
megan |
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| no subject |
[Feb. 15th, 2006|09:32 pm] |
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| | and it won't change... | ] |
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| | piano | ] |
my problems are not great anough so now they do not matter.
megan |
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[Feb. 13th, 2006|09:56 pm] |
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Well good night to all. To all that read this... i guess you could say.... which is no one im sorry for the past and for the future and im sorry that im ignored but that is ok...
-megan |
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| my poem |
[Feb. 10th, 2006|03:56 pm] |
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Here i wrote a poem in school it sucks but i don't give a fuck..
Leave me alone
my souul is black
my heart is frozen
i like it that way
so leave me alone
I talk to myself
People think I'm weird
I agree, I'm and bit odd
So leave me alone
I cut when i need to
It sets my pain free
I love my scars
so leave me alone
They call me satonic
but that i am not
God is my savior
So leave me alone
I love to be by myself
sitting in blackness
music plays from a far
so leave me alone
I'm not leaving soon
but you won't notice
you never do
so leave me alone
:)
-megan... |
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| i love the darkness i live in |
[Feb. 9th, 2006|09:01 pm] |
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| | leave me alone forever | ] |
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No one reads these posts and i really don't care in fact i love being alone infact how about EVERYONE STOPS TLAKIGN TO ME CUZ I LOVE BEING FUCKING ALONE BUT WAIT THATS NOT A PROBLEM CUZ NO ONE TALKS TO ME PERIOD!!! well don't talk to me i don't want to talk to anyone good bye ... |
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| he confuses me |
[Feb. 3rd, 2006|04:08 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | fuck this shit | ] |
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| | wtf.. | ] |
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| | join me - him (by the way john you still have my wristband.. | ] |
im confused so fucking much doesn't matter if i right about him cuz he doesn't read my shit... well this guy (no names)at my school is very oddly confusing.. :( he flirts yet he has a girlfriend i don't know if he notice's it but me and our friends sure as hell do...i like it but i don't even fucking know im just confused but once again it won't matter becasue no one reads my shit.. |
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[Jan. 28th, 2006|11:18 pm] |
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| | the tears i shed for you hurt | ] |
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| | any thing sad will relate | ] |
I remember when we were little we used play and laugh like there was nothing in the world to hurt us we would watch movies together we did stuff together so much you taughet me sports and alwayys enoucaged me but i never felt good enough this past weekend was the worst weekend of my life i realized how much i hate people and how muchi love them in the hardest ways...i miss you so much so much i just wish i could have been good enough....
but now your gone
-megan |
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[Jan. 25th, 2006|06:53 pm] |
The girl sat on the edge of a window in the highest tower on the highest hill. Her hair whipped in the wind. The only movement she made was the rumble of her throat as it vibrated as she hummed a sad song. She looked down to see a group of people watching her in awe, sadness, and as if she was crazy. Yes, people would say she was crazy but she wasn’t she just wanted one thing that life couldn’t give her. One boy in the crowd just looked up as if she was the only thing in his line of view. He stayed perfectly still with his hands in his pockets as people ran into him so they could go upstairs to the girl. The girl stood up and put her arms out wide and turned around she looked into the room and saw the people had got up to her. There faces had fear and confusion. I guess you could say it was because her face held excitement. They ran for her but she leaned back and fell. She fell closing her eyes and a smile spread across her face. She was flying. She yelled one last statement in excitement as she fell “LEEEEEEEET MEEEEEEE BEEEEEEEEEE-“
“free” the boy whispered.
I feell the need to fly free |
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| fuck |
[Jan. 20th, 2006|10:29 pm] |
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| | fuck this | ] |
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| | eminem - when im gone | ] |
hmmm well since i don't get comments or anything i don't care anymore i have only a couple friends if they are my friends... i feel like no one cares especially my mom she doesn't talk to me my dad is a hard ass who is getting used to "hitting" more the people at school say im perky and yay its all a lie im depressed sad sometimes sucidel ... if thats how you even fucking spell it... but it doesn't exactly matter.... no one cares no one could give a shit no one does only a few people...but i don't even know if its the truth i don't even know why im writing this i should just delete this but i can't..its not like it will matter...no one will read it..
-megan |
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